What are you going to do about it?

So, what are you going to do about it?
Quit your belly aching. Pick yourself up child, dust off your knees. It won't be the first time you fall, nor the last.

It is so great to have this blog to look back at all the thoughts I had starting raw foods in the beginning.

I was just giving it a try. But also I was desperate for something to help me. I asked God for help and I was really trying to listen to what he was asking of me regarding food.

I believe whole heartedly what I learned in those early months. God's best for me is the best for my body and the best for the earth and the best for my community and my family etc. God's best is just the best. So if I trust that it gets me one step closer.

Also, I remember the love I had for the food I was eating. I never felt like I was eating less or withholding from myself. I actually had the sense of indulgence in the things that are pure and good. I Loved what I ate and had no guilt or shame because of it. I loved what I ate and it was freeing.

It is still hard for most people to understand why I feel freer on a raw foods diet. I guess it seems restricted. It is freeing in the sense that I can LOVE what I am commiting to have and it helps me keep the boundaries on the other stuff.. the stuff that tends to trigger addictive patterns in me. I lost the feeling of that freedom along the way and I really hope to get it back.

I feel like I am on the right track...
I decided what I needed to do was to start making steps back to the journey I was on.
Start to walk back towards the path of raw foods and caring about / taking responsibility for my body, ending denial, etc.

So I started:

• I bought a scale (I had thrown out my old one when I realized it was a good 30-35 lbs off)

• I took account of the obstacles (when you look at my blog and if you asked any of my friends you would see excuse #1 was grocery shopping. Once I missed a Friday grocery trip my weekend was shot and then usually my week.) So I called whole foods and asked about their personal shopper program. Apparently it is free and easy to join. I signed up and got my first round of groceries this past Friday (first whole foods groceries since I had Gus by the way).
  

• I worked through some of the issues I was having with Vyk that were keeping me from being successful. Plus stress equals stress eating, right?

• I made a meal plan that my family and I could be happy with.

• I committed to this blog no matter how hard it might be with a new born.

• I commited to eating 50% raw vegan for the next year and loosing weight (being accountable to my weight goals).
  

• I made a list of what I would eat over the next year.
  

• I started thinking of ways to exercise with a new born. (I asked for a bike and baby seat for mothers day).
  
• I went for a walk.
  
• I made a list of things I would do for myself to motivate and encourage myself the way I would a friend.
  

So let's get started. Actually I have already started... by the time I looked up from taking my steps toward the path I was on the path well ahead of my plan.

And I want to acknowledge before I start this journey again... that though I deviated... I still have come really far... it shows on the scale (I still, post baby, weigh at least 20-30 lbs less than I did when I started a year ago plus), it shows in my knowledge (I know so much more about raw foods then I did when I started and about me and what I need), in my spiritual growth, in my community of completely dreamy supporting friends, in my pantry, in my blog... ha!