Day 18 RAW

Soul
Well, after waking up in such a funk yesterday, I have to admit I was a bit worried... I guess it was just grief which naturally comes in bursts so you can deal with it in a manageable way. Yesterday I grieved and I am happy about the healthy way I acknowledged and dealt with it. I woke up today with none of the same sadness.

Actually this morning I woke up at 6 (30 minutes early) with lots of energy and could not get back to sleep. This is just not like me. And when other people have talked about it, I would think that sounds crazy!

Spirit
I made use of the time by having a leisurely devotional with a Psalm, a Henri Nouwen daily devotion and Chris Seay's Acts book... Really great!
I prayed esp for Angi and Nathan for recovery and restoration which are the two words God gave me after I visited him last Tuesday. I have been saying them out loud... speaking them "Fully restored, full recovery!"

Body
I went to yoga tonight with my old YOGA teacher who I went twice a week to for 2 years. I have tried others and I just love her routine and her, so it was nice to get a hug and talk. She does Hatha Yoga and it just makes me feel so good. I was so out of practice, but still not as bad as I was the first time I did it. I want to make it a regular thing to go to her class again.
Yoga is just one of the keys for me. It somehow connects me back to my body which I have always been very disconnected from and hateful towards. I also use it as a spiritual practice and have grown so much in doing so... During Savasana or corpse pose, when I have gone pretty deep into relaxation and breathing... I let things float up in my mind.. like painful memories or sadness or anger and as the thought comes up with the inhalation, I picture being in the arms of God and letting that thought or time or feeling fall down at His feet with the exhalations. I picture Him holding me like a child and rocking me. It really helps and God has given this image to me, and this way to practice releasing things to Him. I know a lot of people would think this is too Eastern and not Christian, but
I know that God has used it with me and He has helped me adapt it to worship Him.

Food
I had my highest cooked day today... I had a black bean burger with mushrooms at Chili's which by the way, I will avoid... Everything had dairy or something... It was almost impossible to get a salad I could have... I ended up with the black bean burger, took most of the bun off and mushrooms and steamed broccoli.. I got a house salad with vinegar and oil which came with cheese on it! AHHH! So, really I just need to know how to order at restaurants, which I think will come in time. I will now know to make sure there is no cheese on the house salad at Chilis...
I did not feel bad after my meal and even though it was an almost 100% cooked meal I am proud of my selection. Learning curve.
What is funny is what I enjoyed the most out of the meal was the mushrooms and broccoli. The salad was ho hum ice burg and just not that good! The burger and esp the bread tasted bland and just not fresh.
My taste buds have definitely changed. I think it is a tiny miracle that comes from a big miracle and will lead to a big miracle in me!!!! :)