Day 4 IS HARD

Day 161 Raw Day 4 Diva Detox Wednesday
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Well, after I blogged yesterday, such a glowing report... here is what happened... taken from an email to my group:

Well after that glowing report this morning about my energy levels... I took a fast dive soon after. I was suddenly super hungry so I had a green smoothie (spinach and banana)... I ended up having to lay on the couch and I eventually took kind of a cat nap... Astrid talking to me most of the time. Anyway.. I just got so hungry or my blood sugar got low or something. Maybe the watermelon followed by the banana. I ended up not finishing the normal second glass... it tasted too sweet. I just wanted water and to lay still. I started feeling a little better... like actually getting up and suddenly my body started CRAVING... really, specifically, coconut chips... larger dried coconut. I wanted the texture and the taste both. Luckily, I had some. And I had it. I think this might be off limits of the detox since they want you to avoid fatty fruits like avocado. But, I think my body needed it... or something. So, that kept me OK for a while... but it has just been an up and down day. I have had high energy and then suddenly no energy! I really have been tempted by things I have not been tempted by for a while... like chips that I let Astrid get (I COULD HAVE JUST ONE! BUT I DIDN'T) and I really wanted nuts... just to end the hunger. I guess I am not eating enough... calories. But, I also am not terribly interested in food until I am really hungry and then it all goes down hill.

Then tonight I start getting dull pain in my back (like Kidney area)... strangely this is my glimmer of hope.... detox now in my kidneys. It actually excited me.
Am I crazy... well, it is what I am holding on for... it was kind of a rolling pain (not bad) and I think it is already gone!

I am about to leave for small group. I just had a whole lot of watermelon and I made a beautiful salad to go alongside the spaghetti that everyone else will eat. I am just worried with my body being in a craving messed up mode... the bread and spaghetti are going to be hard to turn away. I will be able to do it, I promise I will DO IT! It will just suck, and that is not the attitude I want to have about what I am doing. SO>>> I am going to go and give it my all!

I am allowing myself some pine nuts on the salad since I really think I might need it (in my current state).

OK so that gets you current to today.
When I woke up I stepped on the scale and it showed 2 lbs of weight loss!!! That makes everything worth while!


Even so, today was a hard day. Not as hard as yesterday, but hard. I go up to work on Wednesdays for staff meeting... where they passed around kolaches and donuts TWICE. The smell was just killing me... I had a green smoothie for breakfast (pears, mango, cilantro and spinach) and it really helped. I made an entire vita mix container full. And packed half for while I was up working... I brought strawberries and coconut chips too. So after I ate the strawberries I was good. Energy seemed better til the evening when I really just dropped off. I wanted to get a lot done after Astrid went to bed, but alas I kind of napped on and off and rested til about midnight.