Down Day with Bananas

Day 79

RAW

Today was a stay at home day. I actually did not have a car today, so I had no choice but to stay at home. This was good because I had a lot of work to do and no one around to distract me from it. I still have a headache today, just a dull one. And this morning I did not want much to eat and had to make myself eat a banana. I ended up kind of nursing myself on bananas all morning. I ate 3 total today. I had a smoothie for lunch and then decided to eat a spinach tamale when I went for dinner at a friends house. That and a few chips. Plus I brought a big beautiful Mexican Salad. Oh and she made this amazing raw pie which was chocolate topped banana mango. It was really good!

But now I find myself still with a headache and a little hungry.

I am not sure what is going on. But I will press through it!

I maybe need to invigorate myself somehow, get out in the fresh air more tomorrow! But, I also want to kind of feel where I am at. If it is an emotional detox then I think I need to let myself feel the emotions that are coming to the surface. I found myself getting a little short with Astrid today, which I realize I did so much more before I started this. I really was taken back by how irritated I was. And realized how far I have come from this. How much more at peace I have been and how happy I have been. It helped me see that the irritation was really over my unhappiness and had very little to do with her. Even if her behavior triggered it. I am so happy to have found something that fully revolutionizes how I see everything. But, I am really ready for things to get past this low and back to my new norm.

Tomorrow, I am going to wake up and have a watermelon slush. I am going to embrace this deep emotional cleansing that I am going through, and I am going to pray more for God to fill in where the cleansing is clearing out.

I made a promise with myself that I would start reading the book (sunfood diet success system) and doing a chapter a day today. I did not do it, so now I will have to double up on a couple of chapters so that I am ready for Sunday's book club. OH WELL!