Day 75
RAW
Waiting for Our No to Become Yes
Gregg Levoy
The psychologist Abraham Maslow calls spiritual and emotional truancy the Jonah Complex: "the evasion of one's own growth, the setting of low levels of aspiration, the fear of doing what one is capable of doing, voluntary self-crippling, pseudo-stupidity, mock humility...." Calls often seem immoderate, beyond our abilities or our wildest dreams, beyond what we believe possible, and immoderation is contrary to most spiritual wisdom. We balk, but it makes perfect sense that we should be called to go beyond our limits, because the One that calls us is beyond all limits.
MOCK HUMILITY
Wow, as I wrote to friends, this one got me! It got me with mock humility... well, it got me with a lot... it called me out. I think one of the things I have worried with in doing this "raw thing" and really all the things God has called me to within the last 7 or so years is being percieved as "immoderate". I need to get over it. Because at this point in my journey, I am really way past that. And that is why the above passage is so good, because we are not called moderation. We are designed for more. We will not live our full purpose, but the closer we get to what we are designed for the closer we get to where God intended us to be, the less moderate we are. What is beautiful though, is it is in the most trivial, small and meekest possible ways. And it should not be challenging or seem subversive to live small or live simply, but it is. In exactly the way Christ was. And that is the closest I have gotten to being Christ like, at least so far. In the smallest ways possible.
God keeps calling me further in this journey and I keep obediently following, it is taking me to a very immoderate place and people will notice, I need to let that go.
The thing is, people have always found me strange in that same way, in a simple way. Maybe that is exactly why I worry. Some people have felt challenged by me even when I was very young. Strange, but true. Especially Christians, and if I had to pin point what it was it is that I see things just a little differently. It is the artistic temperament. It puts people off, the recognize it and some find it beautiful immediately, some warm up to it and some are really very frightened. I will heed my mom's advice to me when I was maybe 15... she said " the same people that find you strange or something that you are doing strange now are going to be the ones later that find you interesting and want to see what it is you are up to." What a good mom. I need to remember that one for my daughter who God help me is going to be the most amazing women in just a few years!
SUNDAYS
Sunday is a hard and good day for me. Hard work, but satisfying. I can not tell you the joy I have found in hard and satisfying work. Today was 100%ish the ish being tabouli. Gotta love eating out Sundays after church.
BOOK CLUB
Today was the first day of the Ladies of the Cacao Bean book club. We are going to be working through David Wolfe's book The Sunfood diet success system. Today was really just a pow wow session and check in, everyone that came has been doing the 100% challenge with me. So we are all kind of in the zone! It was so great to meet and talk, and share... and I got the book today and just am amazed at the striking similarities even just reading the topics of thing that I have written here and have faced in my journey spiritually esp. It just kind of proves (at least to me) the intention behind the creation of this food and how it just links you spiritually to God. I know you can probably eat a raw foods diet and be an atheist, but it might be really hard. It knocks the design of everything in your face and makes you realize someone who cares very deeply for you intended to feed you very well. I keep thinking "consider the sparrows".... So painfully simple, there this whole time. And this is one of his first thoughts. Just the introduction is already touching on it.
FRIENDS
More than anything, today I am grateful for being here, and having friends to talk it over with. It is kind of hard to describe, so it is beautiful to be able to talk it over with people who get it and get you, as I told one of my friends. To get and be gotten. One of these days I will blog about my ugly duckling stuff that God showed me right before I came to the community I am in now.
It is good, and long and I will dig up what I wrote and post it. I also have sketched out some ideas for art work for the story, so someday who knows? I might do it. HA!
RAW
Waiting for Our No to Become Yes
Gregg Levoy
The psychologist Abraham Maslow calls spiritual and emotional truancy the Jonah Complex: "the evasion of one's own growth, the setting of low levels of aspiration, the fear of doing what one is capable of doing, voluntary self-crippling, pseudo-stupidity, mock humility...." Calls often seem immoderate, beyond our abilities or our wildest dreams, beyond what we believe possible, and immoderation is contrary to most spiritual wisdom. We balk, but it makes perfect sense that we should be called to go beyond our limits, because the One that calls us is beyond all limits.
MOCK HUMILITY
Wow, as I wrote to friends, this one got me! It got me with mock humility... well, it got me with a lot... it called me out. I think one of the things I have worried with in doing this "raw thing" and really all the things God has called me to within the last 7 or so years is being percieved as "immoderate". I need to get over it. Because at this point in my journey, I am really way past that. And that is why the above passage is so good, because we are not called moderation. We are designed for more. We will not live our full purpose, but the closer we get to what we are designed for the closer we get to where God intended us to be, the less moderate we are. What is beautiful though, is it is in the most trivial, small and meekest possible ways. And it should not be challenging or seem subversive to live small or live simply, but it is. In exactly the way Christ was. And that is the closest I have gotten to being Christ like, at least so far. In the smallest ways possible.
God keeps calling me further in this journey and I keep obediently following, it is taking me to a very immoderate place and people will notice, I need to let that go.
The thing is, people have always found me strange in that same way, in a simple way. Maybe that is exactly why I worry. Some people have felt challenged by me even when I was very young. Strange, but true. Especially Christians, and if I had to pin point what it was it is that I see things just a little differently. It is the artistic temperament. It puts people off, the recognize it and some find it beautiful immediately, some warm up to it and some are really very frightened. I will heed my mom's advice to me when I was maybe 15... she said " the same people that find you strange or something that you are doing strange now are going to be the ones later that find you interesting and want to see what it is you are up to." What a good mom. I need to remember that one for my daughter who God help me is going to be the most amazing women in just a few years!
SUNDAYS
Sunday is a hard and good day for me. Hard work, but satisfying. I can not tell you the joy I have found in hard and satisfying work. Today was 100%ish the ish being tabouli. Gotta love eating out Sundays after church.
BOOK CLUB
Today was the first day of the Ladies of the Cacao Bean book club. We are going to be working through David Wolfe's book The Sunfood diet success system. Today was really just a pow wow session and check in, everyone that came has been doing the 100% challenge with me. So we are all kind of in the zone! It was so great to meet and talk, and share... and I got the book today and just am amazed at the striking similarities even just reading the topics of thing that I have written here and have faced in my journey spiritually esp. It just kind of proves (at least to me) the intention behind the creation of this food and how it just links you spiritually to God. I know you can probably eat a raw foods diet and be an atheist, but it might be really hard. It knocks the design of everything in your face and makes you realize someone who cares very deeply for you intended to feed you very well. I keep thinking "consider the sparrows".... So painfully simple, there this whole time. And this is one of his first thoughts. Just the introduction is already touching on it.
FRIENDS
More than anything, today I am grateful for being here, and having friends to talk it over with. It is kind of hard to describe, so it is beautiful to be able to talk it over with people who get it and get you, as I told one of my friends. To get and be gotten. One of these days I will blog about my ugly duckling stuff that God showed me right before I came to the community I am in now.
It is good, and long and I will dig up what I wrote and post it. I also have sketched out some ideas for art work for the story, so someday who knows? I might do it. HA!
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