DAY 20 RAW

Body
This AM at Yoga, I had a pretty weird experience... in the coarse of the yoga class I went through every detox symptom in a mini way. They say yoga cleanses all your lymph glands... So I guess that is what was going on. First my feet were hurting, then I had nausea, then I started getting a flimy throat, then a really really runny nose! About that time I thought "this is really weird". Then finally I got a headache. It all cleared except the headache by the end of class, and the headache was gone by the time I got home.

Food
I managed to have a really busy day of not eating at home and do well. Still much more cooked then I would have at home, but good food and good enough considering. We ate at a Sushi Bar after Yoga and before grocery shopping... I had veggie rolls that were out of this world.
Then, I had a veggie soup at a party in the PM. So, cooked but good.
I didn't even think of the other stuff that was available. Actually all the food was good too, so that helped. This is probably the most cooked I have had so far. I did pack lots of healthy raw snacks which kept me on track. I do feel a little less energy tonight and actually a little more hungry than I usually do. Interesting.

Spirit/ Soul
One thing that is amazing me about this journey is this fact....
When God says something is good ... He means it is good...
It is good for me, good for my family...
Good for my budget, good for farmers budgets, good for the local economy, good for the environment, good for the earth...
Good for my tastebuds, good for my spirit, good for my body, good for my soul. If that isn't proof of design in all of this I do not know what is.

When God says it is good, it is good! It is pure and it is purely good.
There are other things that I say are good.. God said it to us, he said it to the animals, he said it to the earth, he said it to the water, he said it to the moon and stars, and he said it to the green and living things.

And all of those things are purely good. Pure life and all amazingly functioning together, in this beautiful way. We try so hard to make it better. But it is good. It is already good. And God is good. I say it so much lately I can barely stand it! But He has designed it all, so simply and so beautifully, out of this overwhelming love and generosity for us.
He did not hold back, He gave us an overabundance. But, we think we can do better.

There are changes being made in me to things I thought were part of my personality. So much a part of me, of my design, that they just would always be that way.

I am the kind of person who sleeps in, I press the snooze button... it is like I can never have enough sleep. But, I have a hard time getting to bed at night, I lean towards insomnia. I am melancholy (well that might still be half true). I have a slow metabolism, I will always be heavy. I am not energetic, I am more the laid back type. I have horrible skin, tend toward chemical sensitivity and rosasia. It's just me, how I was made. God must have wanted me to have a great personality. I am the creative type, not the active type. I am hypoglycemic, I will most likely become diabetic. All the women in my family are diabetic, so I will be diabetic. I can not eat fruit because it spikes my blood sugar too much. I get bad PMS.

Lies. All lies.

I am testing one more health thing this week. I am going to have my doctor test my thyroid. I have been diagnosed with hypothyroidism but have not taken medication for the last year or so because it was the only medication I was putting into my body and I did not want to. (I know)...
So, I am having her test it and then I will decide how to deal with it, trying something holistically or asking about a non synthetic or going back on the synthetic and retesting once I have lost weight and been a year or so raw. I think I have been in a bit of a denial about it which is not healthy. So, I am going to pray and see where He leads me with this one thing. My thyroid symptoms are interfering with all the other benefits of a raw foods diet. So, I do need to do this for myself.