Day TEN raw

Had some potato leek soup with freshly dehydrated Kale (FIRST FOOD IN THE NEW ) for dinner.. other then the soup everything else I ate today was raw!

I discovered the best thing about my work day at Taft is that now Pat is doing all of these raw goodies... I can try to have a little $ on wednesdays and treat myself.. I got some raw carob powder today for $1.50 a lb!

I stopped at Jamba Juice for my first snack away from home... Carrot juice with a shot of wheatgrass... really dropped me... I have to be really careful with juice. :(

SOUL/ SPIRIT-
Addiction- any process used to avoid or take away intolerable reality.
Compulsion- an irresistible impulse to act, regardless of rationality or motivation.

These definitions were in the book by Angela Stokes... She talks about food addiction and it is hard to face... It took me a couple of days to process. She was talking about the fact that real change will come when you deal with the problem of addiction and face them head on instead of saying any diet or anything you can do will solve it... She encourages a 12 step program like OA ... Which made me face the fact that I would be one of "those people". I think the main difference in attitude after digesting this is applying what God has already led me to... I am not in control... I am sick and I have gotten myself here... I can not do it on my own.. I need help from Him...

Very interesting that last word in the compulsion definition... "motivation" .. will power... I think we think we can do it with our will power.. that is day one of a diet and you are strong... but as time goes on... willpower weakens. I have beat up on myself and told myself that I am so weak... Finally realizing that was a lie.. I have strong will power, sometimes too strong (ask Vyk). I am a can do type of person. But now I see... it is not about will power or motivation.. It is about having no control. Realizing God has to be given the control. I think I am on the right road.

Here are the 12 steps of OA

1. We admitted we were powerless over food and that our lives had become unmanageable.
2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
   Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
5. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
6. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
7. Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.
8. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
9. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.
10. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
11. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these Steps, we tried to carry this message to compulsive overeaters and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

Gosh, sounds like biblical living to me. Who couldn't use a 12 step program? So I think I will pick up a copy of a 12 step book at half price the next time I am there and work through it.